head in flowers of gold
wish i could see a bird
flying past my window
but its grey and there’s no one there
no birds, no lifegrowing slow
like a flame
midst of winter cold
brought down like a ship in sail
by rain and thunder and hailby rain and thunder and hail
sunk to the bottom of this great ocean
wonder what she is dreaming of
head in flowers of gold
Xxxxxxxxxx
There was a fountain made of men and women
and when the winter came, it fell apart.
No one knew why
but then someone raised their hand — they planted it up —
and suddenly you could see the haloes.
Everyone had a halo. Some were round. Others blue and hexagonal.
We all have them, above.
But there were none on the fallen fountain. None on those men and women.
They had taken them off… and laid them on the blushing ground.
So when the summer came again,
they tried to get the haloes back… but they couldn’t
see them anymore —they had become invisible.
The men and women who lost their haloes
searched with their blind hands, sculpting the air
until they bled… Until the blood rained hard enough
to coat the invisible crowns, and the men and women could find them.
Then they put their haloes back on,
way up high, and bright,
and held each other, as it is possible to do
when all lights are glowing.
X
I love your body
And I love my body
Together, they are the only bodies
we ever need to know
Your soul
And mine
That is the truth we have been seeking
We are the truth we are now living
X
I wish I was a winner
wish I was a swimmer
A king of cardboard
The ace of cups
just like my father’s son,
wish I was something special
I wish I was your notebook
A place for all your thoughts
And I wish this room was on fire,
built and burning for heaven
built and burning like a stream
to melt all the world I don’t like…
Many moons
passed your face, like
holy lonely guns,
Spackled you with light
You were too afraid to hope
So you kicked it
hard, like a stone
You didn’t know I was there
And I wondered if I mattered
I wondered if you knew
how I wondered what it mattered
when the darkest nights were gone…
I got my sun burnt on a low wall,
Sitting in a well,
but now it’s grown just like
a cancer, split apart from one
But bigger than before
So much bigger now and true
I can’t hate myself
When there’s a man I love
Can’t hate myself
the way I want to
I can’t hate the world
when there’s something bigger on my mind
When there’s a man who I love
Who is not afraid
to be himself
Who is not afraid to love himself
In front of me
And he feels so much I could cry
He feels so much for us both
Don’t go die on the wings of hope
X
XOXO
When we met, there was something I couldn’t tell you
About how much I loved you — right away, right then in the lobby —
Because even now, the way I love you is so vast, so astronomical
Canyons on mars could not make a mark, and
No sun can swallow my song for you…
And I know that this is endless, undying, and real,
like a forever sunrise… forever coming up… forever
exploding, and never going dark.
Someday I will tell you how I am still falling in love with you,
Just the way I am now.
X
